[acimlessons_list] Lesson 182 - July 1
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Thu Jun 30 06:15:51 EDT 2011
Lesson 182 - July 1
I will be still an instant and go home.
Purpose: To go past your defensiveness and briefly go home with the Christ
Child in you. To have an experience of the eternal innocence in you. This
experience will firm up your willingness to follow <the way the course sets
Morning/evening quiet time: At least five minutes; ideally, thirty or more.
The exercise today is clearly a meditation. Begin by repeating the idea and
then stilling your mind. Lay aside all your sense of defensiveness, all your
need to protect yourself against an alien world that cares not about your
needs. Throughout the meditation, whenever your thoughts wander, respond by
repeating the idea.
The more you still your mind, the more, perhaps, you get in touch with a
call in you, an inner pull to experience a sense of home that nothing in
this world can provide. This pull is actually the call of the Christ Child
in you, an element of your true Self Who feels dragged down into this
world's smoggy atmosphere by the weight of your sleeping mind, and Who
<desires to go home so deeply, so unceasingly, His voice cries unto you to
let Him rest a while> (5:3).
Let this inner pull draw you to your real home, which lies deep within. As
the Text says, <You do not remember how to look within for you do not
believe your home is there> (T-12.IV.5:4). Let this Child take you there.
Let Him carry you to your Father's house, and then rest there with Him <in
perfect stillness, silent and at peace, beyond all words, untouched by fear
and doubt, sublimely certain that you are at home> (8:3).
Hourly remembrance: One or two minutes as the hour strikes (reduce if
circumstances do not permit).
Do a brief version of the longer practice. Be still an instant and go home
with the Christ Child. You may also want to ask for guidance for the next
hour and thank God for His gifts in the last hour.
Another lesson about the holy instant. Notice how the thread about
<instants,> <moments,> and <intervals> of stillness, quiet, and withdrawal
from the world, begun in the introduction to this series of lessons and in
Lesson 181, carries through nearly every lesson up to Lesson 200, the end of
this series. It wasn't until my third or fourth time through these lessons
that I realized they were all instructions in consciously setting aside
short periods every day and attempting to enter the holy instant. The themes
seem to differ, but all the difference lies in which block to our awareness
of love's presence is being considered. The aim is always the same: a short
suspension of that block, and the experience of a new awareness that comes
when the block is momentarily removed.
The block being considered today is simply the temptation to find
satisfaction, or to feel at home, in this world. We spend most of our lives
in an attempt to adjust to the world, or to adjust the world to ourselves.
It seems quite natural to us to try to be comfortable here, and we expend a
great deal of effort trying to do so. This lesson appeals to us to set that
effort aside, just for a brief while, and to recognize the childlike voice
within us that is crying to go home - home to Heaven. We need to acknowledge
that <this world you seem to live in is not home to you> (1:1). And,
recognizing this is so, to take time each day to allow this Child within us
to <rest a while> (5:3) and, for <just a few instants of respite.[to] return
to breathe again the holy air that fills His Father's house> (5:4).
This lesson is perhaps the most poetically beautiful lesson in the entire
Workbook. Some of you have heard, perhaps, the poignant reading of most of
this lesson by Beverly Hutchinson on the tape The Forgotten Song. It is hard
for me to listen without tears, and I don't bother trying. Tears are fine,
but not enough; we need to hear the appeal and to act upon it: <Rest with
Him frequently today> (9:1). <Go home with Him from time to time today>
(10:3). <Be still an instant and go home with Him, and be at peace a while>
The thought of this lesson has had a powerful effect in my life. Sometimes
when I am feeling my lowest - dry, dull, and discouraged - just quietly
closing my eyes and saying, <I want to go home> is enough to break the spell
and allow the peace of God into my mind.
Another passage, towards the end of the lesson, has had an equally powerful
effect on me:
You have not lost your innocence. It is for this you yearn. This is your
heart's desire. This is the voice you hear, and this the call which cannot
be denied. (12:1-4)
When I remember these words, I seem to be always surprised at the soothing
effect they have. I had not realized, until I repeated them, how deeply I
was feeling that I had lost my innocence, how much the source of my
depression was a hidden belief in my own loss of innocence. I suddenly
realize that, yes, this is what I am yearning for; this is my heart's
If you can, right now as you read this, stop, and be still and instant, and
go home with me. It is so easy to do. Why delay an instant longer?
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