[acimlessons_list] REVIEW IV, LESSON 149 - MAY 29

[Sue Roth]

REVIEW IV, LESSON 149 - MAY 29

"My mind holds only what I think with God."

(137) "When I am healed I am not healed alone."

(138) "Heaven is the decision I must make."

PRACTICE INSTRUCTIONS

See Review IV practice instructions.

COMMENTARY

More and more, as we progress through the Workbook, what we are being asked
to do is really to commune with God. Or, to put it in more mundane terms, to
get back into communication with Him:

You taught yourself the most unnatural habit of not communicating with your
Creator. Yet you remain in close communication with Him, and with everything
that is within Him, as it is within yourself. Unlearn isolation through His
loving guidance, and learn of all the happy communication that you have
thrown away but could not lose. (T-14.III.18:1-3)

As we clear our minds of lesser thoughts and tune in to the thoughts we
share with God, thoughts will come to our minds, and they won't be from
ourselves alone:

And so each one will bring the message of His Love to you, returning
messages of yours to Him. So will communion with the Lord of Hosts be yours,
as He Himself has willed it be. (W-pI.rIV.In.6:2-3)

Connecting in my mind with God connects me, as well, with my brothers and
sisters, because all of us are connected to the Source. I am not healed
alone.

I could use a "message of His Love" today; how about you? And I wouldn't
mind returning my message of love to Him, as well. There are moments in a
loving relationship where the love just seems to be ping-ponging back and
forth so fast you can't follow it, you can't even be sure whose love is
whose. It outstrips ping-ponging, in fact; it transcends the back-and-forth
motion implied by that analogy and becomes a constant, cyclical current of
love, going both ways simultaneously. You don't even feel as though you are
<doing> anything; you are just caught in the current, possessed by love.
Sort of the way you might feel when you look into your beloved's eyes and
feel you are falling in, when the love coming back at you is almost too much
to bear, and the love you are feeling threatens to blow your circuits. I'd
like a moment like that today with my Beloved. Well, I'd like a moment like
that <this year>. I've had such moments, but they are rare.

Why are they rare? Having those moments of communion, which are a foretaste
of Heaven, is up to me. It's a decision I must make; no, <the> decision I
must make:

The instant in which magnitude dawns upon you is but as far away as your
desire for it. As long as you desire it not and cherish littleness instead,
by so much is it far from you. By so much as you want it will you bring it
nearer. (T-15.IV.2:2-4)

It is nearer than my own heart, so close. This ecstasy of love, this
communion with God, is actually going on right now. My right mind has never
ceased to be in perfect communication with Him (see T-13.XI.8). "The part of
your mind in which truth abides is in constant communication with God,
whether you are aware of it or not" (W-pI.49.1:2).

So all that is necessary is to decide that I want it, and it is there. I
just plug in to it. What is it that prevents me from choosing it? What keeps
me from letting myself fall in love with God? What holds me back? Am I
willing to be in love with everyone, or am I afraid of appearing too
"mooshy"? Am I afraid of being out of control? Am I afraid of being too
vulnerable? What holds me back? Let me look at myself today and ask myself,
"Why am I not experiencing being in Heaven right now?"

When you realize that you could just "switch over" at any instant-and that
you don't!-it is a sobering moment. All of a sudden you can't blame anyone
or anything for experiencing anything less than Heaven. You recognize that
you are choosing it; "I am doing this to myself" (see T-27.VIII.10:1). There
is literally nothing to prevent me from experiencing the holy instant right
now. Nothing but my refusal to accept it; nothing but my fear. "So we begin
today considering the choice that time was made to help us make"
(W-pI.138.7:1). There is no rush; we have all of time to make this choice.
But why wait? Why not now?